Little Faith (eBook)

Nickolas Butler (Autor)

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2019 | 1. Auflage
320 Seiten
Faber & Faber (Verlag)
978-0-571-35112-1 (ISBN)

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From the celebrated author of Shotgun Lovesongs, 'a heart-wrenching look at family and the American mid-west' Stylist 'With its focus on spirituality and reverence for the joys of everyday life, Little Faith calls to mind Marilynne Robinson's Gilead.' The New York Times Lyle Hovde is at the onset of his golden years, living a mostly content life in rural Wisconsin with his wife, Peg, daughter, Shiloh, and five-year-old grandson, Isaac. After a troubled adolescence and subsequent estrangement from her parents, Shiloh has finally come home. But, while away, she became deeply involved with an extremist church, and the devout pastor courting her is convinced Isaac has the spiritual ability to heal the sick. Reckoning with his own faith - or lack thereof - Lyle soon finds himself torn between his unease about the church and the growing threat it poses to keeping his daughter and grandson in his life. Set over the course of one year and beautifully evoking the change of seasons, Little Faith is a powerful and deeply affecting novel about family and community, the ways in which belief is both formed and shaken, and the lengths we go to protect our own.

Nickolas Butler was born in Pennsylvania and raised in Eau Claire, Wisconsin. His award-winning debut novel, Shotgun Lovesongs, was an international bestseller and has been optioned for film by Fox Searchlight Pictures and his acclaimed second novel, Hearts of Men, was a finalist for the 2016 Prix Médicis Etrangere. Butler graduated from the University of Wisconsin before attending the Iowa Writers' Workshop, and currently lives in Wisconsin with his wife and their two children.

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[Peopled with] regular folks, behind whose plain-spoken reserve and dry humor beats the heart of the country, at once practical and passionate, poetic and earthbound.... Butler is very good at getting...the routines and rituals as subtly infused with personal history as with the changing of the seasons.

A powerful story filled with deep emotion ... [A] stark and honest discussion of faith and doubt.

Set in rural Wisconsin, the story unfolds over a year, telling a story not just of people but of place ... This is storytelling at its finest.

Breathtaking yet devastating ... Butler weaves questions surrounding faith, regret, and whether it's possible to love unconditionally into every page of this potent book.

A beautifully realized meditation on the nature of parenting and living in a perplexing (and often cruel) world.

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THE LITTLE BOY GIGGLED AS HE RAN HIS SMALL SOFT HANDS down the old man’s furrowed forehead, over his graying eyebrows, eyelids, and eyelashes, and then settled the blindfold just above his nose and ears before running off into the sunlit cemetery to hide.

“Count to twenty, Grandpa,” the boy called out.

“One Mississippi … two Mississippi … three Mississippi …,” said the old man loudly, in no hurry, patient as a dusty cabinet clock in a dining room corner.

The sound of laughter receded. Lyle Hovde continued slowly counting. Pressed against his brow and eyelids, Lyle’s red faded cotton handkerchief smelled of his worn Wrangler blue jeans: diesel, gasoline, sawdust, the golden butterscotch candy he favored, and the metallic tang of loose pocket change. Before six he heard the boy’s breathing, his little footsteps growing fainter, the occasional crunch of a pinecone or fallen white-pine branch under a sneaker, the squeak of long vernal grass in thick shadow, and giggling. By twelve, there was just the sound of a crow caw-caw-cawing in the crown of a pine. At seventeen, he felt his heartbeat slowing. The April sunlight warming his face felt good, his old barn jacket a comfort, like a tucked-in bed blanket. There was the desire to simply nod off, fall into the soft black sea of sleep. His counting slowed nevertheless, and at twenty, he pushed the blindfold up, opened his eyes, and the world was still there in a thousand different shades of fragile budding green and gently faded browns and yellows. There was no traffic on Cemetery Road. Not a single car. No tractors tilling. In the sky, two sandhill cranes descended toward a far-off pond. His back was against his son Peter’s headstone. He stood slowly, heard his knees pop in protest. He steadied himself against the granite slab.

“Ready or not,” he hollered, “here I come.”

It was a small cemetery. No more than a couple of hundred headstones. His shadow tipped away from his boots, long in the fading light. This grandson of his, Isaac, the only grandchild he knew, this five-year-old boy, what energy he enjoyed. All day long, while Lyle’s wife, Peg, and their daughter, Shiloh, shopped in Minneapolis, Lyle had been left to entertain Isaac, which was no hardship, no hardship at all. But my lord, did the boy run and run and run…. It was only late afternoon and already Lyle felt as tired as if he’d been laboring all day long, splitting wood perhaps, or throwing field rocks onto a stone boat.

“When I find you,” Lyle called out, “when I find you …”

He walked slowly among the headstones. Walked by the graves of old women and men he had known so many years ago, when, about Lyle’s own age now, they populated Redford, filling the pews of St. Olaf’s Lutheran Church, or standing in the narrow, crowded aisles of Hanson’s hardware store, pointing fingers at paint chips, studying cans of insecticide, or slope-shouldering bags of feed. Or there, again, pushing wobbly-wheeled carts through the IGA, the husband navigating while the wife held her long scroll of a list, so much of their life meted out in delicate cursive. Old teachers, farmers, postmen, loggers, milkmen, mechanics, short-order cooks, secretaries, dentists, doctors, firemen, butchers, bank tellers, barkeepers, taxidermists …

He almost walked right by Isaac, but the boy chortled, and Lyle spotted him in the shadow of old man Egdahl’s gravestone. Part of the fun, Lyle knew, was in being found. So he fell upon the boy, tickling his soft belly, his armpits, and his neck, until Isaac had to catch his little breath. Satisfied, Lyle sat on the ground beside his grandson, and noticing the boy’s shoelaces untied, went about knotting them anew.

“You didn’t make me take a nap today,” Isaac said, licking his chapped lips.

Lyle patted the newly knotted shoes, reached into his pocket, and handed the boy a small yellow pot of Carmex.

“You’re five years old. You can’t take naps forever.”

“Grandma says that a person never outgrows naps. She says everyone should take a nap. Every day. She says that in Spain and Portugal, they shut everything down in the afternoon so people can take their siestas.”

“What do you know about Portugal?” Lyle asked.

The boy squinted at Lyle, dabbed a finger in the balm and painted it on his lips.

“You take naps sometimes, Grandpa.”

“What’s that you say?”

“You take naps. In your chair. Watching TV. You even snore.”

“Those aren’t naps,” Lyle smiled, “they’re breaks. Your grandpa is just taking a break.”

“I don’t think people are supposed to snore on their breaks, Grandpa.”

“I don’t snore.”

The little boy laughed. “You do, too. Mom even recorded it on her phone. And Grandma told me once that sometimes you even wake yourself up with your own snores.”

Lyle mussed up the kid’s blond hair.

“C’mon now. Let’s clean up your uncle’s headstone and then we can go visit Hoot. He’s expecting us. Bet he might even have some ice cream waiting for you.”

From an old pipe located at the center of the cemetery they filled two aluminum pails with cold well water and Lyle dripped in a few beads of blue Dawn dish soap from a small plastic bottle he’d brought from home and then circulated his hand about the pail, making bubbles blossom in swirling rainbow iridescence. Lyle carried the sloshing pails to the grave of his lost son, Peter, and together, sun on their shoulders, and shining through the thin translucent skin of their ears, he and Isaac washed the gravestone with steel wool bunched between their fingers. The afternoon was cooling with every passing minute. Their hands grew pink and cold.

“Tell me again,” said the boy, “how he … what happened to him?”

Lyle worked his steel wool against the stone, scouring out bits of lichen and dirt. He looked at his grandson then, felt a surge of love for him, for he was such a kind, sensitive, and curious boy, and more than anything, these were qualities Lyle increasingly valued in the world.

“He just wasn’t healthy,” he said at last, omitting the tragic specifics. “He wasn’t meant to stay, I guess.”

“How long was he around? I mean, how old was he when …”

“About nine months.”

The boy nodded, kept on with his scrubbing, might have thought to himself, I’m so much older than him, then, after a few moments, said, “Grandpa, can we go to Hoot’s now?”

Rising from his knees, Lyle wiped his brow with the sleeve of his jacket, and emptied the pails of sudsy water in long arcs out and away from the gravestones. “One last thing,” he said. “Fill up this bucket here, will you? We’ll rinse the stone clean and then we can head on out of here.”

He watched the boy race off with the empty bucket. Watched him at the spigot, water sloshing near his tennis shoes. Watched him lean down and open his mouth as if at a bubbler—some drinking fountain—water splashing against his tongue and lips and down his chin. Watched him turn the tap off, and then return, water spilling copiously from the bucket with every labored step.

Lyle took the bucket from his grandson and in three graceful motions sent splashes of water glancing off the face of the stone.

The world, he knew, was divided into two camps of people, as it so often is, or as it is so oftentimes and simply reduced to being: those who find cemeteries places of sadness and eeriness, and those, like him, who felt here a deep and abiding unity and evenness, as if the volume in his life were suddenly dimmed down, the way he imagined it might be, floating in outer space, looking out over everything—the immensity of it all. For Lyle, this was a place to be close to people long gone. A free and quiet place off to the side of things. A place to touch not just his memories, but his future.

“Come on,” he said, taking his grandson by the shoulder. “Let’s go. Hoot’ll be waiting.”

“Grandpa, I need to pee.”

Lyle glanced around, pointed toward a huge white pine on the periphery of the cemetery. “Go water that tree over there,” he said.

Hustling toward its vast wide trunk, the boy was already tugging his pants and underwear to his ankles. Lyle looked elsewhere: at an untilled field, a nearby dairy farm, the forests that filled the coulees. By and by the boy returned to him.

“You’re the only person I know who needs to pee more than me,” Lyle said. “But I’ve got an excuse. I think my bladder has a hole in it.”

“A hole?” the boy asked, squinting up at his grandfather.

“Must be a hole. Or a few holes.”

“How did you get a hole?”

“Shot. An arrow, it was. Passed clean through me. Left this hole right here.” He touched his belly button.

The boy laughed. “Grandpa, that’s where your umbilical cord was. The one that connected you to the placenta. I’ve got one, too. Everyone does.”

“Oh,” said Lyle. “I forgot about that. Thought that’s where I was shot.” And how does he know these things? Placenta?...

Produkt-Details

• Erscheint lt. Verlag: 2.4.2019
• Verlagsort: London
• Sprache: englisch
• Gewicht: 1 g
• Themenwelt: Literatur ► Romane / Erzählungen
• Themenwelt: Geisteswissenschaften ► Sprach- / Literaturwissenschaft ► Anglistik / Amerikanistik
• Themenwelt: Geisteswissenschaften ► Sprach- / Literaturwissenschaft ► Literaturwissenschaft
• Schlagworte: Corvus • Diabetes • Gilead • grandfather grandson • Marilynne Robinson • middle america • religious extremism • shotgun lovesongs
• ISBN-10: 0-571-35112-3 / 0571351123
• ISBN-13: 978-0-571-35112-1 / 9780571351121